Sunday, May 17, 2009

.a resolution list revisited.

When I decided to go back and look at my list of resolutions for this year, (you can see the original post here) I realized just how quickly the days have already flown by.  Maybe not flown, but rather HAULED A** on top a speeding bullet!!  With the half way mark into the year just being a few weeks away, I wanted to see where I stood with my list.  Honestly, I am cringing in my seat as I know, I'm not DONE.  Yes, I know, I still technically have a little more than 6 months left to work on these things. . . and I think that's the point.  To work on them.  So let's take a look at this list, shall we. . . 

~ Pursue my artistic desires with much more fervor & focus.  Make it happen!  I'm still working on this one.  There is a website being built.  I just need to work on the "fervor" and "focus" part so that I can get it done! 
~ Don't sweat the small stuff.  Honestly, I think I have actually done really well with this.  Stress has been such a horrid monster in my life (as I'm sure many of you can relate) and I've determined that I didn't want it to transform ME into that same monster.  Perhaps we can go as far as to say "Don't sweat the big stuff" too.  And I say that because I believe that it's worrying that clouds our rational thinking and suffocates our bodies.  Breathe. . .   
~ Love more. . . gripe less.  (Yes, sweetie, that's directed to you! ;o] )  Without going into too much personal information, this is one I know needs more attention.  I've been griping less, I think, but I know that the romantic side of me needs some revival!  More kisses, more hugs, more "I love yous."   
~ Read more.  Yes!  Yes!  Yes!  This I have been doing!  Helps that I work at a bookstore!
~ Drink more water.  I think I've been drinking more coffee than anything else lately!  Still working on this one.
~ Save more. . . spend less.  Doing better, but also could be much better.  Especially in the SAVE MORE aspect.  Thank goodness for the change jar!  
~ Stay in touch better. . . even with those who are close by.  When I wrote this, I had "snail mail" in mind.  And although I have reached out and communicated better with close friends, this can always be improved!  I'd like to get some handmade notes out there.
~ Finish the unfinished.  There are several things that can be categorized under this line.  None of which are "finished."
~ Mend spiritual relationship.  This has been an extremely hard one for me.  One that I am slowly, but surely working through.  I am trying to tear down the thick walls of anger, fear, frustration and sowing seeds of joy, peace, and contentment.  There's a communications barrier and I think it's called my ego.  
~ Lose weight.  (You know I had to throw that in there)  I've been ignoring this one for months, until recently.  I feel so uncomfortable in this body.  The weight that I've gained the last several years due to high stress, then pregnancy, has really altered who I perceive myself.  I don't like the face that looks back at me in the mirror.  I wonder, "Who are you and what have you done with Kathy?!"  It's as if the "real me" is trying to so desperately be seen again that I finally made the decision to not "lose weight" but to eat better.  I wanted this to be a lifestyle change, not just for me, but for my family.  I've gone down a dress size so that's good!  Still quite chubby but my focus is on becoming healthier!  So, yeah, it's still a work in progress. 

So how about you, what resolutions did you have for this year?  Where do you stand on accomplishing those goals?  

3 comments:

  1. my main thing is that I thought I would have a job by now

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  2. i just wrote a long comment and my typepad open id thing won't work and it's been erased!! basically love your post today and feel very similar!

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  3. What a great list. I always through mine out the window within a couple of months. I need to add don't give up so easily to my list. So many of things I read on your list belong on mine.

    -I should spend less- much less!
    -drink more water and exercise
    -stay in touch with friends
    -finish what I start
    -and so on
    great post-made me think.

    -unravelling junie

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